Month: September 2020
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Admission update
Well, this admission has definitely been different from the rest, thanks to Covid. Still, it’s not as different as I expected it to be. The biggest change that sucks is being stuck on the unit all the time instead of being allowed to roam the facility. My moods have been staying consistently at the very…
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Going in-patient…
This week has been challenging. I’ve been dealing with low moods, fatigue -again-, and poor concentration. I am definitely not at the lowest point that I’ve been, but I’ve definitely been struggling. I reached out to Dr. M at the centre, and heard back from him. He’s admitting me for a week to give me…
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Breaking things down on a mixed emotion day…
Today has been pretty mixed. I felt like crap first thing this morning, but picked up again after talking to M2. We had a good chat, though she did recommend that I reach out to Dr. M. I called him before lunch, but unfortunately have yet to hear back from him. I’m hoping tomorrow. This…
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An intentionally quiet Sunday…
Today was a bit better than yesterday, but I am still not in a great headspace. I’m feeling tired and unfocused. The self-harm urges are in check, but still a hell of a lot more prevalent than I would like. I’m glad I have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow. Based on how that appointment…
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Stopping isn’t an option
I hate this time of year. As good as I’ve been doing, I always find myself struggling at this time of year, and this year is apparently no exception. I’m over a week into a downward spiral that always hits me this time of year, and today has probably been the worst day I’ve had…
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Feeling empty…
This has been a busy, and stressful week. On Monday I took Lynn to Red Deer for an MRI, then had a meeting to cover for the paper that night. On Tuesday I had another meeting, followed by studying. Wednesday, I was at the Alliance Market with my photography business, and I did not bad.…
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Holding the line…
I’ve been struggling over the last few days. My energy has been low, and I’ve been feeling totally drained. I have been having a hard time engaging in life, and feeling like I’m actually living. Despite how crappy I’ve been feeling, I’ve been pushing through, staying at least somewhat productive. I’ve been staying on top…
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I will never forget 9/11…
Every so often in life something happens that changes the trajectory of life. Nineteen years ago one of those changes occurred which was felt worldwide: terrorists hijacked airplanes and flew them into the World Trade Centre and the Pentagon. Passengers rushed the hijackers of another aircraft, however they were unable to regain control and the…
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Content Warning: Suicide… World Suicide Prevention Day
Today marks three years that I’ve been writing this blog. In some ways it feels like yesterday the first day I hit ‘Publish’ and in other ways it feels like forever. I have come a long ways since then. Or have I? Today has not been a good day. I’ve been finding myself drifting towards…
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Forward progress…
After a weekend away, I hit the ground running today. This morning was spent catching up on some coursework, then I joined Lynn for lunch at the shop before heading up to Alliance to cover an event. After the event, it was grabbing a couple groceries before head home to do some school reading. After…
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Catching up…
I can’t believe it’s been a week since I last updated my blog. It’s been a busy week. I ended up covering the bookstore for three days last week, one of which was planned, and then on Friday took off for a guys weekend with my friend C. I’m definitely feeling relaxed after my time…
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